It’s crazy to know that I’ve worked on our 4th year exhibition since September and that in less than 2 weeks, not only will it be launched, but I’m graduating from university! I remember everything so clearly – from the first time I took a tour at Ryerson (and jealous of my friends who can study elsewhere outside of Toronto) to the first class I went to and met the 60 people who will go through the new media program with me. These are the graduates of 2012, the people whom I had witnessed and people whom I had grown up together.
I read an entry from a friend lately who is a student ambassador like myself. She wrote about graduation and whether she should be worried. She wrote about that she didn’t know what she was good at, nor she identified her skills, until one day someone complimented her for her writing skills. It was only then that she realized she had some hidden talent that she have had the fortune of having – that some of her natural skills actually are “real world skills” and that they matter. It’s interesting because I can relate to it so well. It is sometimes hard to know what you are good at – until you stand back and take a look, listen to what others say and map them out perhaps on paper. Her final line really touched me: “If you do what you love and follow your interests then you won’t have to “pad your résumé” to look good to potential employers for life after university – you’ll already be there.”
Life works in a funny way sometimes. It can be ironic and leaves you surprised. Opportunities comes and go, and sometimes, leaves us wondering “What if…” Perhaps, I was fortunate to be a worrywart because it helped me to pave my path forward. When I was going through second year, I feared and panicked like a university graduate. I felt upset that I did not feel I was learning enough from university, that I had not made my money’s worth or my commute time. Can these be my blessings? I think so. In fear and frustration, I started looking and identifying my interests and hunted the resources to learn about the arts. I stepped out of comfort zone, and started questioning, meeting people from all over and didn’t let the idea of being alone bug me. Whatever challenge that was standing my way, I pushed it aside and leaped over it. I told myself that fear is just an interference – something that is pushing me from my full potential. I embraced in opportunities.
I’m graduating in 2 weeks and I’m still uncertain what I’ll be doing post-graduation. I have no jobs lined up for me, nor do I have a career planned. What I do have though is my ambition, my experiences and my will to keep looking. With that, I know it will bring me forward.
Photos for the META 2012 website by Katrina Sung